Caffeinated.

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I should've draw a clear, bold line and keep myself distant from the other side.

Honey, love isn't addiction. Addiction sucks, and suffocates you. You're not free like you used to be; the way you love it the most. Craving for attention from the person who you don't know care about you legitimately or not, hoping they'll see your stories posted on Instagram and Whatsapp; with hopes that they would reply but you end up with nothing. Addiction sucks up the energy within you, and reflects the glow you outshine from yourself, making you much more invinsible.

Learn watching flowers bloom from far away because if you get too close, you'll block the sunlight from supporting them to grow; and all you do is killing them with darkness of your shadow.

Oh honey, learn how to stay away from people and be pleased with yourself.

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