chrysalis

Because I know no one would find me here. Oh God whatta day I had today. Yknow that feels bila kita rasa bila kita buat sesuatu yang supposedly buat orang rasa wow, then you're able to grab that person attention too. Lol I was wrong. I should've change for myself, not for people to see, but for me to cherish. Tuhan bagi izin aku jumpa dia lagi harini - dan aku sedar sesuatu yang tak mungkin aku ubah, kalau Allah dah kata kun fayakun; jadilah, maka jadilah. In my eyes, he is my whole world that I've been looking out from far away all this while. But in his eyes, there's someone else who has become his whole world, that he always look after, all the time. And that's how in my eyes, I hope that he's always going to stay that way; happy, and have something nice to look forward to. Terima kasih aku pada Tuhan, sebab makbulkan doa aku untuk selalu jaga dia dengan baik, dan alhamdulillah dia baik-baik saja :) Maybe it's time, to actually move on. I independ...

I should've draw a clear, bold line and keep myself distant from the other side. Honey, love isn't addiction. Addiction sucks, and suffocates you. You're not free like you used to be; the way you love it the most. Craving for attention from the person who you don't know care about you legitimately or not, hoping they'll see your stories posted on Instagram and Whatsapp; with hopes that they would reply but you end up with nothing. Addiction sucks up the energy within you, and reflects the glow you outshine from yourself, making you much more invinsible. Learn watching flowers bloom from far away because if you get too close, you'll block the sunlight from supporting them to grow; and all you do is killing them with darkness of your shadow. Oh honey, learn how to stay away from people and be pleased with yourself.